Decided to give up for now

Becos happiness dun last

I need more time to have a better personalities.

There are times like now I feel like giving up on everything, everything that I care for and everything I am trying for.

Life's reali tough n I've made it even tougher for myself.

I should reali give up on things that r making my life tough.

2012- who shouldn't be in my life should be my decision.

I'll rather not have anyone.

It's hurt badly

VERY BADLY

Ting: You know very well what are good/bad for you. Every decisions is a risk, do it and one day, you will overcome it.

reali appreciate this msg from u, xuan.
its becos i know it so well whats are good n bad and what r the risk involve that make me not able to make any major decision.
JAN is ending and FEB is coming.
i am in a very bad state
i am so lost and worry =(

anyway, what has to be done has to be done.
will be very brave and strong when the time come =)

Loves <3

hohoho~~
i have resigned!
well, its been a long time that i wana resign as its reali too stressful le.
but i choose to stay becos i am happy working there.
now, new boss suck to hell and its horrible.
they simply dun kind abt the welfare of the dogs.
how to work like that?
n as a boss, their attuitube is too "disgusting".
maybe they treat me as a dog?
they can be so evil to a human,
how can they be any nice to a dog?
dun bear to leave but i have to.
they are monsters and will kill me soon.

jus hope that they get someone good to handle the place.
hope that they dun anyhow feed the dogs like what they do to their dog.
haix
i am sad yet happy.
sad to leave and happy that i finally leave.

gona complete my M9 by Jan den try out for months and die die get the 15k den leave the company. hahhaaha

den maybe use the money study or do business?

JAN will be my rotting month!! woohoo~

this is so true

before you can grow up,

you must fall in love three times.

once, you must fall in love with your bestfriend,

ruining your relationship forever.

this will teach you who your true friends are,

and the fine line between friendship, and more.

once you must fall in love

with someone who you think is perfect.

you will learn that no one is perfect,

and that you should never be treated

as anything less than you deserve.

and once,

you must fall in love with someone

who is just like you.

this will teach you about who you are,

and who you want to be.

and when your through with all of that,

you will learn

that the people who care about you the most,

are the ones that your hurt.

and the onces that hurt you

are the ones you need the most.

but most of all,

you learn that love is only a concept,

and is not something that can be defined.

it is different to each and every person on this earth.

SO

go for the guy you are totally comfortable with.

not the one you have to act like

a slutty bitch in front of to get his attention.

go for the one that is perfectly happy with you,

the real you.

you shouldn't have to try to be someone your not,

for any guy.

ever.

don't go for that guy,
that sucks up to you,
and drowns you with compliments.
go for that guy who pisses the fuck out of you.
the one who you can fight with,
argue with, and cry over.
but still love him with all you have.

yoyo!
its been a mth plus since i last blog.
OCT and NOV was a bad bad mth uh?
down with fever for 2 times
and guess what?
i cried almost every week.
first it was on the 2nd oct when "she" ran away from club and met an accident,
sad to know that she's paralysis.
its was so much for me to handle and to face the owner.
its bloody hell horrible =(

and den ginger was throw back to me becos the owner had enough fun of her.
she was full of ticks and she's sick.
took her to hospital and realize her kidney is spoil.
spend 6k to save her and finally brought her back to club
and i poke her with needle to keep her living.

and guess what the fuck happened the next day?
DALE suddenly passed away without giving me any warning.
it was on the 2nd Nov 8.45am.

so followed by ginger on 7th NOV 1.55am.

its was terrible and horrible.
suck to max!

so wtf is wrong?
i am super sad and sick for the pass few weeks.
i hate this type of life.
its bloody FUCK UP

anyway, its time for me to leave.

but hmmmm
i need to stay to help up with the new boss.
-_-

should i? =(

*jus got bitten by a tick. FML

i am so sick today
but its ok
bcos i love my job
and
i overcome everything toda
because
one of my regular customers (a son (30 plus) and his mum (60 plus))
actually hoped and asked me not to leave c4p when the management change on dec
altho they are not the first one to ask me to stay, i am very touched by them.
their reaction was so big and the way they ask is so true.
and a lot of them ask me to hang on (funny tho) haha

been tinking alot recently regarding my job at c4p.
i have doubt in myself at times if i can overcome the stress from work
hmmmm
but when it comes to my customers and their dogs,
i cant bear to leave
they will always show their appreciation by getting me some gift
not the gift that makes me happy but their appreciation.
i might not be able to have this type of feeling/happiness again in life after i left c4p??
yes my job is happy and fun but its not only tired but stressful too
i am like looking aft LIFES everyday
how can that be not stressful?
should i ask for a demote?
yes too much to handle
i am not smart nor hardworking
haha
life goes on......................
and
I
AM
FUCKING
GOING
FOR
MY
M5
EXAM
TML
AGAIN.
jus like wat i had said, its ok to FAIL.
hahhahahahaha
i am not givin it up YET

goodnite and wish me LUCK!
huat ar!!!

where r u when i need u?

its ok to fail.
jus dun give up.
haha
i jus fail my module 5 again (second time)
but its ok.
i will try again
ya its kind of like FML
hahaha
family laughed and said i need to go for the 5th time to pass! (jus like my tp)
FML