32 months of love story ended toda
you had already forgotten all the romantic and touching moments we once had
for a mistake i made that you cant forgive
it was me that destroy our love story
the love and tears u gave me
makes me feel like an idiot in the end
bcos its too late for me to realise
i cant go on without u
thank you for everything my boy

i've love u without fear
trust u without questioning
need u without demanding
want u without restricting
accept u without change
desire u without inhibitions

now that i had lost you for a foolish mistake i've made

your voice is just wat i need now

i am afraid
thing always turn out not the way i wan
fark
thanks mei and eli for accompany
now, eli not feelin well
i am very scare
i wan them ard me
i reali need them

now, is time to bring out my courage and speak out.
god bless me

i dun wana lost you.

love my job at club4paw
facing dogs is reali better den facing human being
pity the dogs ther
some got abandoned aft owner send them here for grooming and broading.
they become emo and some become very aggressive :(
hmmm.. i wont bring aiai for broading. never!
wonder y those owner bear to let their dogs go for broading.
they look so sad n lonely...
and tick can be found on them..
omg rite?

anyway, that's the only time i feel real relax and happy :)
haha
love aiai to max
and i am reali addicted to her~~
haha

i ate a lot toda
cos i know i wont be eating tmr and so on
god bless me

I MISS YOU SO~~
SEEMS LIKE IT'S BEEN FOREVER
THAT YOU'VE BEEN GONE~~

THE END of attachment
not easy
reali not easy
glad that i can get it done

holiday le~~
dun feel as happy le
:(
i am smiling bcos i am getting stronger each day
i have to face it one day
knowing that i am stronger, i hate the world more
its sux
life stil gona go on n on n on~~
hahaha
i am so fine
bcos i cant disappoint my family
i cant
i reali cant disappoint them
parents are forever parents
love them forever :)
haha
i am jus emo-ing
u dun have to be so stupid to read this blog.
byebye!

i will nv be fine
fml

presentation is over
everything was ok

i should feel happy n relax
yet now,
holiday is coming
it will nv be the same anymore

however, the frenship i had will always be the same
last nite, shawn helped me out on my presentation
cos he know if he dun help, i wont give a damn le
in the morning, he's the first to msg me
not wishin me good luck
but to tell me that if i am gona speak out, do give him a cal first
he know me so well til he know i need him to pei me le
you gals msg me and ask abt me
ya, i am fine of cos :)

without the 4 of u
i tink am dead by now
haha
reali thanks alot for not scolding me and was there for me.
i am sorry

last but not least, you :)
thanks for all the care and worries u had for me even tho u duno wat's goin on

tis holida gona be a painful one

i always tok is was a hibits to have u with no much love involved
now, when i am losting u, i know i reali love u for who u r
its always too late to realise
no longer the same anymore

nth went into my brain
fark up
seriously, i am afraid of being alone now
i need ppl stay by my side now
but, who the hell will have the time
hahahahahahaha

ya, its always too late to realise

i realized i’ve did something wrong

i dun wana remember them but i'll make sure not to repeat them.

ya, i believe in karma

karma is back for all the sin that i've indirectly done

no matter how many good deeds i’ve done, it will never enough compared to a sin.

xuan : i know, its always too late to realise

dun talk to me

i am tired of smiling

ok, gona stop here
not gona to cal anyone or affect anyone of u le
i am sorry
life stil gona go on
hate affecting all of u
thanks for rushing down for me
thanks for being there for me
thanks for all the msg

i am gona quit the game in a nice way
i hope i can
everything might not gona end soon
but no matter wat
i am reali not gona give a damn :)
damn it
haha
smile :)
love u gals

i've got a nightmare

i reali need to cool down

nv eat for more den 1 day

gona slim down i guess

force me eat if u can

i wan to eat

but food jus couldnt enter my mouth

i've a farkin sux feelin

hold on to me pls

dun let me go wrong anymore

this is my life
i am gona let it be

i have my family and frens who love me so much
why upset?
hahaa

it was ur good that change my mind

if part of the life can be deleted
it will be great
haha

LIFE REALI NOT EASY TO GO ON
IF U HAPPEN TO WALK A WRONG PATH BEFORE

haha, this card very cool rite?!! lol.

went vivo aft work for dinner
the food was pretty good!
haha
Japanese Gourmet Town
sure goin back to eat again!
wana try the others

love the curry too, not spicy and taste nice
haha
thanks for the dinner :)

ok, brought aiai her wet food and some treat for her as she has already recover :)
she seem to like the treat
but i know, aft a few more, she will.... SIAN~
haha

hmmm, tml goin to shop for former shirt and stuff with xuan :)
goodnite!

woohoo~~

i am so happy!

gona end my freakin attachment next week!

gona buy my supervisor a gift.

wat can i buy for a china man?

well, he is quite good la.

actually very good?

i tink i slack the most in this lab.

afternoon nap and slacking ard~~

he dun reali care tho

haha

i tink he teach me quite alot oso la

jus tat i go in from left come out from right -_-

ok, toda is FRIDA!!

going vivo for dinner and gona shop for gift and buy aiai her wetfood.

this month damn overspend.

100 plus on aiai health

and blah blah blah

not yet pay my credit card bill

damn it

feel like givin my dad the bill

haha~~

daddy beat me ytd for callin him" eh HELLO HELLO!"

LOL

damn hard

he very long nv give me money le

idiot

tell him i no money go for car pract le

and he gave me a smile n ignore me

ok. pay is in ytd

time to pay my bill

and gona stock up aiai's wet unhealthy food le

boss in

bye!

Ni ren hao jian wo, wo ying gai zhu ding shi jian dao?

who can understand tis? haha

"hao de =D
ni shi wo de bao bei
ni shou she me
wo hui zhou
ting de dong ma?"

Your chi stil have a long way to improve!
haha

hahaha
i jus feel like laughing!

ok, gona be on diet from sat to tues :)
jia you!

tml is friday!
woohoo~

woohoo~~
less den two weeks to my holida!!
only need to go lab for 6 more times!!
wahaha..
fianlly fianlly fianlly!
love being a student!
okok, holiday got so much things to do!
first, my TP!!
i wan a PASS!
den, work for my interest at club4paw and save some money for next sem.
oh, so wana go marina barrage :(
like a nerd, nv go b4.
hahaha
next, i wana go ZOO and underwater world~~
who wana go??
gona bring aiai to bishan park to meet her bf on sat during my holida.
and last but not least
SLEEP and SLACK!!
woohoo~~

"Smile"

Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned
Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend love
Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me

[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa

Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then i
Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around with my head
Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing
Me

[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face oooh

Its not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the life that i
Would choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)

[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la-la la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la
Laaaa

toda, miss neha called " Si Ting, i couldnt open ur poster, i tink u only copy n paste it in the CD."
hours later, Mr wiliam called, "Si Ting, i couldnt open ur AES website, can u post in online and send me the link?"

toda, bad bad day :(
got stressed up and so worry la.
asked for help, but.... fren rushed home :(
called eli and ask her know how to creat website not.
i doubt she understand wat i wan.

lucky, kengwai helped me out :)
haha. less den 10 mins, DONE
he gona help me pass to mr wiliam tml
THANK YOU!

so happy :)
aiai shit le!
woohoo~~
and she's very fine and cheerful now
muacks!

so silent :(

cheer up!

miss all of u so much~

i am gona change at the next exit :)
join me ya

PUMPKIN~
nv buy pumpkin before
hahahaha..
actaully abit shy when i hold on to the whole pumpkin at cold storage
anyway, manage to find the canned pumpkin
omg, damn ex lo
$4.65 per can
tink i will nv buy for myself to eat lo
aiai ar aiai ar~~~
hope aft she eat the pumpkin, she can shit out all her rubbish in her tummy :)
feel like giving her the whole can to eat
so tat she can shit out fast
hahaha

tell me if smoking and drinking are useful

i will pei you

all u hate was these

and u was there for me

remember tis, we r always here for u

is all alrite that u are upset

time heal everything

his love might be a lie

no point hurting urself

gona be strong k :)

LOVE U

3 days le..........
aiai still haven shit :(

hahaha!
ok, sam! stop tinkin! LOL

tml i am goin
i have not been tinkin abt it
i know i am run away
decision should be made
i am confused
i duno if everything is true
ya i am afriad
stayin in the same position doesnt mean i am all fine
is that i dun dare to move
staying still is nv easy
and i am not jus tired

wo de sha xin ni zhi dao ma?
i will be happy if u reali understand the sadness in me
tat will be the time i start to move on
it will nv happen
i know

and i duno y i am stil standin still

ya, stupid.

woohoo~~
FYP submited!!
feel so relax :)
went out with kengwai aft that
haha
went to eat at marina sq den to suntec
and we train down to dotako?
den to spca but closed :(
wanted to buy thier t shirt
the staff was quite lazy
she said they are close and not goin to sell me the shirt -_-
how can they reject money that r meant for the poor dog?
haix
y cant ppl love the dogs more?

i am so happy la
manage to complete my report! LOL
wasnt easy for me
and now, presentation on 25th :(
scare~~~~~~~~~~~

13 aug 2010 2.05am

fianlly finish my FYP
totally sux to max when i have to redo everything within two weeks
the worse part is supervisor not ard during the dueline week
i am reali farkin pissed off
now that i have complete everything
i am worry that this is not wat he wan
he just fly off without tellin me wat to do
haha
how wonderful my attachment is
lets hope my presentation on the 25th can go smoothly

this two days, been cracking my brain
i reali dun like to think
my brain was kind of blocked
haha
send my stuff to kengwai and ask him to check for me
thanks ya!

ya, i am stupid.
haha.
i can make a mess over a freaking simple thing
hell man
if brain can be donated, i will be the first one to donate away mine
btw, brain can be donated????
haha
ok, meeting gals on sunda for lunch :)
kinda miss fiona

and ya, aiai is getting better
not as moody le
she's getting smarter like me :0

Goodnite!

ok. i am very not happy with aiai attitude.
she's getting more picky with food.
now that i feed her all type of meat, she start to demand not jus meat but with butter or honey taste.
such a bad gal
and now she's sick due to the vaccination n deworning i gave her
tml gona rush back from work n send her to vet le
she look moody n tired
haha.
she's scare of fireworks!
i knew it.
timid gal who like to bark at stranger
stupid

been moody for tis few days aft i know tat my in charge left for china :(
hope he dun break his promise
he said he will send me back my edited report back tml for me to hand in on friday
i am worry.
didnt do any fyp tis weekends as WAT THE FARK CAN I DO?
haix.
its reali making me damn moody
lying ard at home for the whole day with aiai.
roll here n there.
pray tat he will send my report back
ok. the fireworks was pretty cool
jus in front of my window
haha
got to know a nice n lovely guy
which i feel happy chating with

ok. time up!
gona slp le
goodnite!

woohoo~~
love workin at club4paws
working with dogs is real wonderful
although they can be quite naughty
one kept bitting my hair -_-
some can reali be very very naughty that i reali duno what to do with them
while some can be damn guai la
i am like lookin aft fake dog lo
haha. too guai le
hmmm
first day of work quite tired
haha. glad that Eli, Gerald, maya and marley came!
qutie fun ba.
haha.
i reali love working with these dogs.
the pay is too little for me to cover my expense la
i tink aft i finsh poly oso cannot work there le
oh, i got surprised by all of them!
i was moppin the floor and i start to sing.....
guess what?!
suddenly they all sat infront of me and start to shake their tail, all become so guai!
wow! i wonder if i scared them!! hahahahahaha!
ok. got a bodyache due to the combination of the work load and my period.. :(
i tink i know y i am so giddy this few days le.
tink reali bcos of my fyp ba? haix.
kind of like give up le. no need go ntu le. sian.
tink thats the reason that make me unwell ba
so fuck up.
and now off he went china
left me alone with my fyp
wan see how i die?
hmmm
stress but wat to do?
time to give up le.
hahahaha. ok
nvm la.
no much intention to go uni oso :)
i am hungry le -_-
5pm just ate fish n chip
gone case lo
been growing fatter n fatter.
wtf is wrong with me.
haha.. holida coming soon!!!!!
time to enjoy le!
i so wana go oversea la.
fark! y no one can go with me! idiot.
haha. time to rest :)
byebye!

this 3 days...
GIDDY !!
cannot even move when i slp!
bloody hell.
walk blur blur to work.
miss my station.
fark.
so giddy n tired.
ahhhhhhhh!!
den period come when i was alone at vivo jus now.
jus to buy beef for naughty aiai.
haix.
she's such a bad gal.
feel so xin ku now -_-
who is feelin the same as me now??
~cramp~

WOOHOO~~~~

i am so goin to work at club4paws.

well, my job is to bring the dogs to swim, walk, feed them and clean them.

and some counter work which i dun reali like la. haha.

gona learn how to stop a dog fight and handle naughty dog.

and of cos first aid :)

and some basic grooming. hehe.

ok, the pay~~~~

5 dollar per hr -_- and is so so far at yew tee.

haha. 12 to 5pm.

i dun tink i can earn any out of tis job.

the only reason is i wan to learn n play with the dogs :)

best is i can bring aiai with me to work!! WTH man!! haha

but but but.... no car :(

sad! how to transport her!?

anyway, when i get my car license, i need to drive company car to fetch dogs n send them home.

so i tink i can fetch aiai den. haha!!

hope everyting goes well for me! woohoo~~

*hope i dun get bitten by any of them on my first day of work.

toda training was pretty ok. haha.

i am loving it! haha